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Friday, 09 April 2010

Sunday, 14 March 2010

So I cut my hair today. Here are the pictures.

Which picture do you like the best? I think I like the second one.

Saturday, 13 March 2010

I love this picture.

The words "My heart will wait" is what I'm going to have engraved into both of our wedding rings.

Also, I got good news!
Kegan said that if I move to Cali when I turn 18, that the Navy would pay for us to get an apartment near base. :D
So I might be moving. Thankfully my birthday is in the summer, so it'll be easier to move. I know that if your in the Army, you get time off for moving, but does that apply to the Navy too? Idk... I also finished up Kegan's present today! :) I hope he likes everything. I don't want to say what I'm getting him just in case he reads this, but I'll post int next weekend after I give it to him. Are you all having a lovely day? It's very rainy here.

Sunday, 07 March 2010

Currently
Losing Sleep
By Parachute
The mess I made
see related

Hmmm.......
Where do I begin? How about Thursday?
So on Thursday, I went to this coffee shop right by my school to meet up with Kegan and my friend Ciera who switched out of my school recently. I love seeing them both. Kegan said that I "magically aged 3 years" since I got my braces off. His mom agreed when he showed her the pics of me later that night that he took while we were together. There was a really cute one of us together kissing, but for whatever reason, my phone won't let me put it on my computer.
Then friday I spent the night with Lydia. After school we went to her house and took a walk. We shared a Mike's and then went back to her house. Her mom took us to this place where we taught old people how to ballroom dance. ha idk...it wasn't so bad. Then Eric (Lydia's boyfriend) took Lydia to go see Alice in Wonderland. They didn't have another ticket for me, but we told her mom that there were enough. Then Kegan met me at the mall and picked me up. He had been drinking, so this was probably a bad idea. He went to his parent's shop and just cuddled. This next part is sexual and you can skip over it if you want.

*Beginning of sex rant*
Okay, so I'm really self conscious about giving oral. I feel like I should do it because the rest of the time, he's doing all the work and I'm just laying there. I know that he gives more then I do, so I feel like I should try and give back. I've always been grossed out by the thought of giving oral. Once I tried it, I realized that it's actually not all that bad, but I'm still worried that he lies to me about being good at it. He always goes on and on about how "I suck dick like I made it up" His words, not mine, but I don't really believe him. Anyways, we got...not really in a fight, but we did hurt each others feelings, whatever you want to call it, over the matter. It was all around just a bad night as far as that goes. Should have stuck to cuddling.
*End of sex rant*

Then he took me back to the mall when the movie was over. Lydia's mom picked us 3 (Lydia, Eric, and myself) up and took Eric home before going back to Lydia's house. At this point it was after midnight, I had been crying and upset, and I was hungry because I never did eat dinner. Needless to say, I wasn't in the best mood.
The next morning (today) I woke up and ate pancakes and took a shower before going with Lydia to her modeling thing. After her class was over we went to the mall. Then her mom picked us up and we went to get some lunch before her mom took me back to meet up with my parents and my sister who is visiting this weekend.
I spent most of the rest of the day in my room crying because I was still so sad from last night. Kegan and I talked things out and we both apologized for what happened last night.

Sorry if I got little graphic in my rant...You were warned. Any thoughts? I'm still a little down.
I supposed I should mention that I have SAD, which ironically enough is a depression disorder. It stands for Seasonal Affective Disorder. It basically means that I tend to get really depressed in the winter. My good mood from the other day probably had a lot to do with the weather being warmer.
I hope everyone is doing good!

Our friends will all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because
we know that none of them have felt this way.
-Plain White T's

Wednesday, 03 March 2010

AHHHHHHHH

Today has been so amazing!
Okay, I had an orthodontist appointment this morning at nine, and instead of making me go to school for half an hour and then coming back to pick me up, my mom let me sleep in! :D
Those extra 45 minutes made my whole day. I've been in such a good mood.
So, I got my braces off!!! :) After 20 months, I was so ready! Plus, this is the second time I've had them. All together, I've had braces for almost 4 years.
So I got my braces off and then they gave me balloons and candy. (wow. I'm so lame.) Then I used my "points" or whatever, and I got a free $15 itunes gift card and a free $20 walmart gift card. Then my mom took me to Lynn's Garden which is this Chinese place with great sushi. I have been craving sushi for like...a month. :) After that I went back to school and everyone was like "Show me your mouth!" Ahhhh It's great!
Now I'm about to talk to Kegan on the phone. I'm just...so happy. It's such a nice change. If I could see Kegan today, then today would have been perfect. Oh! I forgot to mention the weather! THANK GOD! It's getting so much warmer! :) That made my day better too. I hope you all are having a good day too! Have you ever had braces? If so, for how long?

You're chasing the ghost of a good thing.
You're haunting yourself as the real thing
is getting away from you again while
you're chasing ghost.
-Dashboard Confessional <3